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"I heard once that they would rather hear about memories than enemies
Rather hear what was or what will be than what is 
Rather hear how you got it over how much it costs you 
Rather hear about finding yourself and How you lost you 
Rather you make this an open letter about family and struggle and it taking forever 
About hearts that you’ve broken and ties that you’ve severed 
No doubt in my mind that will make them feel better"


-Drake

Thankful.

We all take for granted things we have and we've had.

Sadly on my list are my mom and my dad...

The older I get, the more that I grow.

The wiser I become, with time it will show.

They do so much for me and I appreciate that.

They made me who I am to today, to them I take off my hat. 

I'm thankful for those in my life! Whether present or past.

I'm thankful for every memory, a lifetime they will last.

Thanksgiving has lost its meaning over previous years
Sometimes we just don't listen, we need to open our ears.
The joyous conversations as we spend some time together.
The football games you'll play in this terrible NW weather!
Life's lessons are such a blessing, soak them in and be thankful.
I've definitely learned from them and for that I am amazingly grateful.
Happy Thanksgiving! If you want to share what you are thankful for,
I'd love to hear it! and I bet others would love to hear it more!

I hope you all have an absolutely wonderful day today!
Spend lots of time with your family because you never know how long it will last!

First Thanksgiving without you mom... It's definitely unpleasant knowing that when I wake up in a couple hours I wont be calling you to wish you a happy Thanksgiving, but I know you're here with me every day! I love and miss you : )

Uncertain Mindset.

Lately I've found myself in places where I'm not sure I want to be.

Rephrase! I want to be there, but I'm not sure I want to be there now.

Work has been stressful, I've found that freight is definitely not something I want to do much longer. It's just a paycheck to me. Not something I have a passion for, not what I went to school for, not even something I want to do! I kinda just got stuck here.

I sit here staring at the middle screen of my 3 monitor computer set up drinking my cup of french roast coffee. In hopes that by the time if finish typing this, the coffee will kick in so I can fly through the day focused on what I need to get done to get outta here. (I never drink coffee so when I do, it literally hits me like a drug)

I've also found myself missing being in a relationship. Its definitely something that I don't care to just jump into (I know a lot of people who will jump into relationships because they're used to being in one) Not how I roll, means way more to me than just "I like you, you like me, lets date and see if it works."

I like to call those people "attention whores!" haha.

I just miss the little things like holding hands, little kisses here and there and the feeling you get when you see the smile on their face when you do something that they like!

Sometimes I feel like I have way too many friends. I hang out a lot! I love spending time with people. Both good and bad I guess. and with all that being said, there is this girl that I've been spending a good amount of time with lately, but like the title goes.... I currently have an uncertain mindset. AND of course, (just my luck) the more I hang out with her, the more other girls come outta the wood works. It's weird. Not gonna lie. and i don't necessarily mean they're coming out wanting to date me, just coming out wanting to hang out more! (which if I was in a relationship, might be a little uneasy for her to grasp?)

^ ^ ^ when I say that I'm getting more female attention, I'm not saying it as "I'm keeping my options open." because that's not the reason I'm uncertain with this girl. I was in a long ass relationship that ended the beginning of this year, I think its healthy for me to not be in one for a while. I've definitely gotten to experience more this year being single. Lots of searching and I feel like I've learned a lot about myself.

HAH! So, I've been at this post for 3 hours now... I'm at work so its been off and on, but after reading this I noticed that when the coffee hit me I just started rambling! I don't even know where I went with this! whatever, I'm done for now. I should stop before my brain starts hurting. hope this even makes sense to whoever reads this! : P

Something to take into consideration.

"Spend life with who makes you happy, not who you have to impress."