With hard work come wonders beyond amazing measure.
A Love that grows strong is one of life’s greatest treasures!
Be patient, waiting is definitely going to take a toll on your heart.
It’s a test, it’s not easy, and you’ll need a great start.
Love grows stronger and stronger with experience and age
It’s an unwritten book and YOU get to fill the page!
Timing has its own mind, it’s either right or it’s wrong
It’s not yours to control, you can’t fast forward this song!
Love is amazing and it makes you do the craziest things.
It’s random like Red Bull commercials and how they say “it gives you wings”
You get back what you put in so if it’s real make it work.
But make sure the other heart isn’t just another jerk.
Two hearts will grow strong, it happens, I’ve seen it done.
Those hearts with such a bond, love turns two into one!
So when the timing is right the light will shine from up above
It hits hard and you’ll feel the strength and passion of that Love!
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Sunday, December 25, 2011
Merry Christmas!
Good morning and Merry Christmas!
I woke up at 6 am this morning, wide awake and speechless... Not exactly sure why, but I know it wasn't because I was excited to open all my presents under my tree. Under my tree sit 3 presents and none of them are for me. They're from me to 3 amazing young ladies that I've gotten pretty close to this past year and I know this may sound corny, but the memories I've made with them are more than anything I can ask for as a Christmas gift.
This morning is the first Christmas I've ever woken up and didn't have anyone to share the morning with. I've always had a family member a room away or for the past couple years I had a girlfriend who (even though we didn't live together) was there right when I woke up. <- This probably sounds sappy and sad, but I'm fine with this! It's a situation I've never been in before and something I needed to experience!
I have the most amazing people in my life and I know it! They may not be here when I wake up Christmas morning, but it doesn't have to be a "special days" for me to realize how special they are to me. I'm very thankful to have everyone in my life that I have and I wouldn't trade any of them for the world!
I'm going to be very specific with this next sentence because I definitely don't throw this word around, I cherish the value of it and to me it's not a toy.
To my family and very close friends, I love you and I can't wait to see what the future holds for us all!
I hope you all have a very Merry Christmas!
A gesture as simple as smiling and opening a door for someone can turn their day around. In co relation to what I wrote above, it doesn't have to be a special day to make someone feel special.
I woke up at 6 am this morning, wide awake and speechless... Not exactly sure why, but I know it wasn't because I was excited to open all my presents under my tree. Under my tree sit 3 presents and none of them are for me. They're from me to 3 amazing young ladies that I've gotten pretty close to this past year and I know this may sound corny, but the memories I've made with them are more than anything I can ask for as a Christmas gift.
This morning is the first Christmas I've ever woken up and didn't have anyone to share the morning with. I've always had a family member a room away or for the past couple years I had a girlfriend who (even though we didn't live together) was there right when I woke up. <- This probably sounds sappy and sad, but I'm fine with this! It's a situation I've never been in before and something I needed to experience!
I have the most amazing people in my life and I know it! They may not be here when I wake up Christmas morning, but it doesn't have to be a "special days" for me to realize how special they are to me. I'm very thankful to have everyone in my life that I have and I wouldn't trade any of them for the world!
I'm going to be very specific with this next sentence because I definitely don't throw this word around, I cherish the value of it and to me it's not a toy.
To my family and very close friends, I love you and I can't wait to see what the future holds for us all!
I hope you all have a very Merry Christmas!
A gesture as simple as smiling and opening a door for someone can turn their day around. In co relation to what I wrote above, it doesn't have to be a special day to make someone feel special.
Saturday, December 10, 2011
Thank you for your help!
Every person from your past lives as a shadow in your mind.
Good or bad, they all helped you write the store of your life, and shaped the person you are today.
-Doe Zantamata
They say, "Don't dwell on the past, but focus present and strive for the future!"
As stated above, the past helps the present create the future. Yes don't dwell on it, but definitely learn and draw from it. "Move forward and don't look back!" That's BS! Look back! Just don't go back... How else are you going to learn from your mistakes if you try to forget about them?!?
Your past is your past for a reason.
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
Memories.
"A picture is worth a thousand words"
Sometimes pictures just aren't enough. Pictures you're shown are great, but its not the same if you weren't the one taking the picture! or there when the picture was taken.
I was reminded last night that memories last a lifetime. At times, we pick and choose what memories we want to make. Certain things we know we want to do as a group, some by ourselves, and some things we want to save and do with that special someone.
I've subconciously been on this "make memories" kick lately and I've been hanging out a lot. I'm not gonna lie, its physically exhausting, but the more I thought about it today the more I realized that I'm having a great time in life right now.
Yes I barely sleep and yes I'm always broke, but the stories I can tell you from recent events are priceless! I was told I need some alone time. I don't deny the fact that I probably do, but I've never really been one to be alone.
Real memories are risk taking and definitely worth making.
They're more enjoyable then the one's others are faking.
Lasting forever, they're like a slide show playing inside your mind
Things you make with what you do, say, see or what you find.
Memories are priceless, they can never be replaced
Without memories its like your life was just erased.
Sometimes pictures just aren't enough. Pictures you're shown are great, but its not the same if you weren't the one taking the picture! or there when the picture was taken.
I was reminded last night that memories last a lifetime. At times, we pick and choose what memories we want to make. Certain things we know we want to do as a group, some by ourselves, and some things we want to save and do with that special someone.
I've subconciously been on this "make memories" kick lately and I've been hanging out a lot. I'm not gonna lie, its physically exhausting, but the more I thought about it today the more I realized that I'm having a great time in life right now.
Yes I barely sleep and yes I'm always broke, but the stories I can tell you from recent events are priceless! I was told I need some alone time. I don't deny the fact that I probably do, but I've never really been one to be alone.
Real memories are risk taking and definitely worth making.
They're more enjoyable then the one's others are faking.
Lasting forever, they're like a slide show playing inside your mind
Things you make with what you do, say, see or what you find.
Memories are priceless, they can never be replaced
Without memories its like your life was just erased.
Saturday, December 3, 2011
that feel good ish.
Remember that time when I sang you that song?
You were excited and you talked about it all night long...
Your friends got tired of listening to you
It was that feel good ish, sharing is all you could do.
Everyone has that person that always brightens your face
They do it so well! it doesn't matter, the time or the place.
Whether its your brother, or your mother, that girl or that boy.
Their presence just so happens to fill your heart with such joy.
Even if they're far away across the world or just a mile
They always seem to know how to bring out your lovely smile.
People fade in and out of lives, its how the stories unfold.
Relationships are developed... learning experiences they hold.
Always remember this, some people will never go away
They're true to you, they're worth your time, and they're definitely here to stay.
This one goes out to my lovely friend Shailey. Although I haven't seen her physically in FOREVER, we still keep in contact and she still motivates me to keep up with poetry. She's one that's definitely worth my time! Hope you like it sugar! : P
You were excited and you talked about it all night long...
Your friends got tired of listening to you
It was that feel good ish, sharing is all you could do.
Everyone has that person that always brightens your face
They do it so well! it doesn't matter, the time or the place.
Whether its your brother, or your mother, that girl or that boy.
Their presence just so happens to fill your heart with such joy.
Even if they're far away across the world or just a mile
They always seem to know how to bring out your lovely smile.
People fade in and out of lives, its how the stories unfold.
Relationships are developed... learning experiences they hold.
Always remember this, some people will never go away
They're true to you, they're worth your time, and they're definitely here to stay.
This one goes out to my lovely friend Shailey. Although I haven't seen her physically in FOREVER, we still keep in contact and she still motivates me to keep up with poetry. She's one that's definitely worth my time! Hope you like it sugar! : P
Monday, November 28, 2011
Headlines
"I heard once that they would rather hear about memories than enemies
Rather hear what was or what will be than what is
Rather hear how you got it over how much it costs you
Rather hear about finding yourself and How you lost you
Rather you make this an open letter about family and struggle and it taking forever
About hearts that you’ve broken and ties that you’ve severed
No doubt in my mind that will make them feel better"
-Drake
Rather hear what was or what will be than what is
Rather hear how you got it over how much it costs you
Rather hear about finding yourself and How you lost you
Rather you make this an open letter about family and struggle and it taking forever
About hearts that you’ve broken and ties that you’ve severed
No doubt in my mind that will make them feel better"
-Drake
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Thankful.
We all take for granted things we have and we've had.
Sadly on my list are my mom and my dad...
The older I get, the more that I grow.
The wiser I become, with time it will show.
They do so much for me and I appreciate that.
They made me who I am to today, to them I take off my hat.
I'm thankful for those in my life! Whether present or past.
I'm thankful for every memory, a lifetime they will last.
Thanksgiving has lost its meaning over previous years
Sometimes we just don't listen, we need to open our ears.
The joyous conversations as we spend some time together.
The football games you'll play in this terrible NW weather!
Life's lessons are such a blessing, soak them in and be thankful.
I've definitely learned from them and for that I am amazingly grateful.
Happy Thanksgiving! If you want to share what you are thankful for,
I'd love to hear it! and I bet others would love to hear it more!
I hope you all have an absolutely wonderful day today!
Spend lots of time with your family because you never know how long it will last!
First Thanksgiving without you mom... It's definitely unpleasant knowing that when I wake up in a couple hours I wont be calling you to wish you a happy Thanksgiving, but I know you're here with me every day! I love and miss you : )
Sometimes we just don't listen, we need to open our ears.
The joyous conversations as we spend some time together.
The football games you'll play in this terrible NW weather!
Life's lessons are such a blessing, soak them in and be thankful.
I've definitely learned from them and for that I am amazingly grateful.
Happy Thanksgiving! If you want to share what you are thankful for,
I'd love to hear it! and I bet others would love to hear it more!
I hope you all have an absolutely wonderful day today!
Spend lots of time with your family because you never know how long it will last!
First Thanksgiving without you mom... It's definitely unpleasant knowing that when I wake up in a couple hours I wont be calling you to wish you a happy Thanksgiving, but I know you're here with me every day! I love and miss you : )
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Uncertain Mindset.
Lately I've found myself in places where I'm not sure I want to be.
Rephrase! I want to be there, but I'm not sure I want to be there now.
Work has been stressful, I've found that freight is definitely not something I want to do much longer. It's just a paycheck to me. Not something I have a passion for, not what I went to school for, not even something I want to do! I kinda just got stuck here.
I sit here staring at the middle screen of my 3 monitor computer set up drinking my cup of french roast coffee. In hopes that by the time if finish typing this, the coffee will kick in so I can fly through the day focused on what I need to get done to get outta here. (I never drink coffee so when I do, it literally hits me like a drug)
I've also found myself missing being in a relationship. Its definitely something that I don't care to just jump into (I know a lot of people who will jump into relationships because they're used to being in one) Not how I roll, means way more to me than just "I like you, you like me, lets date and see if it works."
I like to call those people "attention whores!" haha.
I just miss the little things like holding hands, little kisses here and there and the feeling you get when you see the smile on their face when you do something that they like!
Sometimes I feel like I have way too many friends. I hang out a lot! I love spending time with people. Both good and bad I guess. and with all that being said, there is this girl that I've been spending a good amount of time with lately, but like the title goes.... I currently have an uncertain mindset. AND of course, (just my luck) the more I hang out with her, the more other girls come outta the wood works. It's weird. Not gonna lie. and i don't necessarily mean they're coming out wanting to date me, just coming out wanting to hang out more! (which if I was in a relationship, might be a little uneasy for her to grasp?)
^ ^ ^ when I say that I'm getting more female attention, I'm not saying it as "I'm keeping my options open." because that's not the reason I'm uncertain with this girl. I was in a long ass relationship that ended the beginning of this year, I think its healthy for me to not be in one for a while. I've definitely gotten to experience more this year being single. Lots of searching and I feel like I've learned a lot about myself.
HAH! So, I've been at this post for 3 hours now... I'm at work so its been off and on, but after reading this I noticed that when the coffee hit me I just started rambling! I don't even know where I went with this! whatever, I'm done for now. I should stop before my brain starts hurting. hope this even makes sense to whoever reads this! : P
Rephrase! I want to be there, but I'm not sure I want to be there now.
Work has been stressful, I've found that freight is definitely not something I want to do much longer. It's just a paycheck to me. Not something I have a passion for, not what I went to school for, not even something I want to do! I kinda just got stuck here.
I sit here staring at the middle screen of my 3 monitor computer set up drinking my cup of french roast coffee. In hopes that by the time if finish typing this, the coffee will kick in so I can fly through the day focused on what I need to get done to get outta here. (I never drink coffee so when I do, it literally hits me like a drug)
I've also found myself missing being in a relationship. Its definitely something that I don't care to just jump into (I know a lot of people who will jump into relationships because they're used to being in one) Not how I roll, means way more to me than just "I like you, you like me, lets date and see if it works."
I like to call those people "attention whores!" haha.
I just miss the little things like holding hands, little kisses here and there and the feeling you get when you see the smile on their face when you do something that they like!
Sometimes I feel like I have way too many friends. I hang out a lot! I love spending time with people. Both good and bad I guess. and with all that being said, there is this girl that I've been spending a good amount of time with lately, but like the title goes.... I currently have an uncertain mindset. AND of course, (just my luck) the more I hang out with her, the more other girls come outta the wood works. It's weird. Not gonna lie. and i don't necessarily mean they're coming out wanting to date me, just coming out wanting to hang out more! (which if I was in a relationship, might be a little uneasy for her to grasp?)
^ ^ ^ when I say that I'm getting more female attention, I'm not saying it as "I'm keeping my options open." because that's not the reason I'm uncertain with this girl. I was in a long ass relationship that ended the beginning of this year, I think its healthy for me to not be in one for a while. I've definitely gotten to experience more this year being single. Lots of searching and I feel like I've learned a lot about myself.
HAH! So, I've been at this post for 3 hours now... I'm at work so its been off and on, but after reading this I noticed that when the coffee hit me I just started rambling! I don't even know where I went with this! whatever, I'm done for now. I should stop before my brain starts hurting. hope this even makes sense to whoever reads this! : P
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
Something to take into consideration.
"Spend life with who makes you happy, not who you have to impress."
Monday, August 29, 2011
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Broken.
Broken hearts are love aching. it’s not a fun thing
It’s inescapable, it’s a familiar song we all sing
It happens when your hurt and the pain digs down deep
The memories will stay and forever we’ll keep
When a loved one is lost or a partner doesn’t stay
Our hearts are in pain, it’s the price that we pay
Anxiety kicks in and the pain hits you hard
Your mind is attached and left permanently scarred
But they say what doesn’t kill you will only make you grow stronger
Have faith, it takes time! Just wait a little bit longer.
Over a partner, be confident and know that it wasn't meant to be
You're amazing, they lost out and will make them see!
Sorry Shailey, I really am having a hard time with this so ill just stop now… haha
BUT…
I will share another thing I came across yesterday!
Somewhere there is someone who dreams of your smile,
Who finds in your presence that life is worthwhile.
So when you are lonely, remember its true,
That somebody somewhere is thinking of you!
Monday, August 22, 2011
back to basics
lets see how fast I can write on this subject. its 13:20 right now. ready, go.
Fundamentals are key with anything. Knowing your basics will help with a strong beginning to whatever it is you're doing. Lots of times, people like to skip steps and get away with half ass jobs. It works sometimes, but not always.
A while back I wrote about how I've grown to not expect anything from anyone. Less hurt feelings and it's just more of a suprise when something happens! I've kinda forgotten about that and guess what? "Emotions are lame." You make plans with people and they stand you up! Not even a phone call. No answer back to texts? Yea. I was kinda sad about it at first. Then I thought back to what I developed growing up. Sucks that I'm about to say this, but its time to build that wall back up. oh well. life goes on people grow up and grow apart. sheit happens! : P
oh and its now 13:22
not that long but still just came out like it was nothing.
Fundamentals are key with anything. Knowing your basics will help with a strong beginning to whatever it is you're doing. Lots of times, people like to skip steps and get away with half ass jobs. It works sometimes, but not always.
A while back I wrote about how I've grown to not expect anything from anyone. Less hurt feelings and it's just more of a suprise when something happens! I've kinda forgotten about that and guess what? "Emotions are lame." You make plans with people and they stand you up! Not even a phone call. No answer back to texts? Yea. I was kinda sad about it at first. Then I thought back to what I developed growing up. Sucks that I'm about to say this, but its time to build that wall back up. oh well. life goes on people grow up and grow apart. sheit happens! : P
oh and its now 13:22
not that long but still just came out like it was nothing.
Thursday, August 11, 2011
busy bee.
The last 2 weeks have been crazy busy for me. I know I said in my last write that I would write everyday, but that definitely didn't happen. In regards to being busy, my room's a mess! I've only been home lately long enough to either change my clothes (and just leave them on the floor) or to sleep.
Sunday to Sunday recap.
Last Sunday was shopping and hanging out on nw 23rd. Followed by a bbq and spending the night at my cousins.
Monday work then went to the fair (for free)
Tuesday work then went to the fair AGAIN (and again for free)
Yesterday was super's bday dinner! Work, ran some errands then went to dinner.
Today work then FOR THE THIRD TIME THIS WEEK going to the fair (and also for the third time, for free)
Tomorrow I'm getting raped by Les Schwabs after work when I go in to get new tires. Gotta have a safe vehicle for Sunday's trip.
Tomorrow night will also include a downtown evening adventure! Greg and Nicky are coming into town and have planned a night out for all there friends here at home.
Saturday I have a wedding to go to.
Sunday Kahneeta!
My schedule is pretty ridiculous if you ask me. I really need some chill out time!
HAH. Maybe next week!
Sunday to Sunday recap.
Last Sunday was shopping and hanging out on nw 23rd. Followed by a bbq and spending the night at my cousins.
Monday work then went to the fair (for free)
Tuesday work then went to the fair AGAIN (and again for free)
Yesterday was super's bday dinner! Work, ran some errands then went to dinner.
Today work then FOR THE THIRD TIME THIS WEEK going to the fair (and also for the third time, for free)
Tomorrow I'm getting raped by Les Schwabs after work when I go in to get new tires. Gotta have a safe vehicle for Sunday's trip.
Tomorrow night will also include a downtown evening adventure! Greg and Nicky are coming into town and have planned a night out for all there friends here at home.
Saturday I have a wedding to go to.
Sunday Kahneeta!
My schedule is pretty ridiculous if you ask me. I really need some chill out time!
HAH. Maybe next week!
Monday, July 25, 2011
tryin it...
I find myself sometimes just blowing up Facebook with status for no reason. Updates throughout the day as if I know people actually sit there and wonder what I'm doing... I don't know why I feel the need to post sporadically but, I'm going to try something new! This week I'm going to try really hard not to post anything on Facebook, but instead wait till the end of the day and write about all the stuff I would have said. (just all at once and on here not FB.) Later on tonight I'll sit and recap the day and write. We'll see how that goes for me. 1 week!
Sunday, July 24, 2011
unobtainable reality.
For the past couple weeks I've been having these amazing dreams...
AMAZINGLY REALISTIC DREAMS!
I remember every second of them not so much like dreams, but more as if they were memories... Memories that I can look back on to smile and laugh about. I wake up full of emotion, but I know they're only dreams. It's not real...
These dreams confuse the shit outta me sometimes though because as told "dreams are a wish your heart makes."
What happens when your dreams are exactly what you want, but not what you want at the same time? Does that even make sense?
I'm not sure what to think of these dreams. Kinda hot and cold. I guess I'll just have to wait and see where life takes me.
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
ready, set, go!
I just decided that I was going to start writing and end wherever it is I stop.
A vacation sounds nice right about now. I'm debating on what I wanna do with the next month. Thinkin about going to Wild Waves in Tacoma this weekend, but I don't really want to go unless I can get a big group to go! Is a Wild Waves season pass worth buying? go 3 times and its well over paid for, BUT I would also need a season parking pass... Will I even have time to go 3 times? Tacoma isn't the closest as well....
ALSO
VEGAS! all my fam from cali are going for the 4th of july weekend! they want me to go.... do I spend the money on that?!? It would be nice to get away for a bit, but at the same time am I just wasting away money? Isn't that what money is for? to be spent right? Whatever, I'll figure something out.
In other news, it's Tuesday! The day after the dreaded Monday.... The day before the lovely Hump Day! Tuesday's kinda lame! It's definitely cooler than Monday but its not far enough into the week that you have anything to look forward to! You don't say "YES! tomorrow's Tuesday! One day closer to Wednesday!" That only works with Friday. And Wednesday is only cool at the end of the day cuz you're officially past the middle of the week! (over the hump)
What to do with myself... I've been running a lot lately...! it's been fun! hitting 24 hr fitness everyday as well! Filling my time wisely yet just doing whatever I wanna do whenever I wanna do it! I seem to never be home! That needs to change a little. I need a little tiny bit less of a social life! People are starting to drive me crazy!
^ ^ ^ ^ ^ Haha. Wow. Apparently I can go on and on about nothing! I just started going and after I hit the " ! " there was a wall. I'm done now. That was entertaining. Thanks for reading!
A vacation sounds nice right about now. I'm debating on what I wanna do with the next month. Thinkin about going to Wild Waves in Tacoma this weekend, but I don't really want to go unless I can get a big group to go! Is a Wild Waves season pass worth buying? go 3 times and its well over paid for, BUT I would also need a season parking pass... Will I even have time to go 3 times? Tacoma isn't the closest as well....
ALSO
VEGAS! all my fam from cali are going for the 4th of july weekend! they want me to go.... do I spend the money on that?!? It would be nice to get away for a bit, but at the same time am I just wasting away money? Isn't that what money is for? to be spent right? Whatever, I'll figure something out.
In other news, it's Tuesday! The day after the dreaded Monday.... The day before the lovely Hump Day! Tuesday's kinda lame! It's definitely cooler than Monday but its not far enough into the week that you have anything to look forward to! You don't say "YES! tomorrow's Tuesday! One day closer to Wednesday!" That only works with Friday. And Wednesday is only cool at the end of the day cuz you're officially past the middle of the week! (over the hump)
What to do with myself... I've been running a lot lately...! it's been fun! hitting 24 hr fitness everyday as well! Filling my time wisely yet just doing whatever I wanna do whenever I wanna do it! I seem to never be home! That needs to change a little. I need a little tiny bit less of a social life! People are starting to drive me crazy!
^ ^ ^ ^ ^ Haha. Wow. Apparently I can go on and on about nothing! I just started going and after I hit the " ! " there was a wall. I'm done now. That was entertaining. Thanks for reading!
Sunday, June 19, 2011
Happy Father's Day, Mothers!
For 10 straight years of my childhood, my mom played both mother and father to my brother and I. I definitely appreciate the fact that my dad is in my life now, but while he wasn't my mother busted her ass to do everything she could for us and I absolutely love and appreciate her for it. I couldn't ask for more. Thank you mom, I love you so very much! I have an amazing respect for single parents who are doing their best for their children!
To all you single fathers out there, Happy Fathers Day!
Single mothers... even though you recently had "Mothers Day", You deserve a Happy Fathers Day as well!
Although its fathers day, I woke up this morning with half a poem in my head for the single mothers in the world who also play dad. Not sure why... but i finished it and here it is! Have a wonderful day everyone!
Some kids have a mother and a father in one.
A woman who plays both parents to their daughter/son.
This one goes out to single mothers on fathers day
You're amazing, inspirational, that's all there is here to say.
I hear that its a struggle to do it all on your own
But it can be done, I see it in this display that you've shown.
Independent, Strong and Loving definitely describe you
You're appreciated for doing all the things that you do!
Until they're older your kids will take for granted the help that you provide
They'll realize and be thankful that you never left their side.
So as I sit and I reflect on all the words that I say,
I thank you again for impacting my life! Mothers, Happy Fathers Day!
To all you single fathers out there, Happy Fathers Day!
Single mothers... even though you recently had "Mothers Day", You deserve a Happy Fathers Day as well!
Although its fathers day, I woke up this morning with half a poem in my head for the single mothers in the world who also play dad. Not sure why... but i finished it and here it is! Have a wonderful day everyone!
Some kids have a mother and a father in one.
A woman who plays both parents to their daughter/son.
This one goes out to single mothers on fathers day
You're amazing, inspirational, that's all there is here to say.
I hear that its a struggle to do it all on your own
But it can be done, I see it in this display that you've shown.
Independent, Strong and Loving definitely describe you
You're appreciated for doing all the things that you do!
Until they're older your kids will take for granted the help that you provide
They'll realize and be thankful that you never left their side.
So as I sit and I reflect on all the words that I say,
I thank you again for impacting my life! Mothers, Happy Fathers Day!
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Speak up.
A friend of mine every so often asks me to write a poem and she always gives me a topic to write on... She once asked me to write about hiding the past and confession. I took the time and this is what i came up with.
Without even speaking its easy to see
The real you, not the person you’re pretending to be.
This mask that you wear isn’t fooling anyone
It leaves you in the dark and its blocking the sun.
There are things on your heart that you want to get out
But you’re not too sure because the past brings you doubt.
Confessions clear the mind and give a fresh perspective
They also filter aspirations that are wrong or deceptive.
Take a breath, analyze, and if you decide you wanna share
I'm sure there’s people in your life that will always be there!
Its not a bad idea to keep a secret or two
But confessing in the end will always free you!
The real you, not the person you’re pretending to be.
This mask that you wear isn’t fooling anyone
It leaves you in the dark and its blocking the sun.
There are things on your heart that you want to get out
But you’re not too sure because the past brings you doubt.
Confessions clear the mind and give a fresh perspective
They also filter aspirations that are wrong or deceptive.
Take a breath, analyze, and if you decide you wanna share
I'm sure there’s people in your life that will always be there!
Its not a bad idea to keep a secret or two
But confessing in the end will always free you!
I've come to find out that when the time is right, we all say/do what's on our minds and on our hearts. There are times when we want to say/do something, but we just don't. Whether it sits on our mind for a day or a month, it'll eventually get out in the open some way or another.
The saying "don't wait until its too late!" does indeed make perfect sense! At the same time though if uncertain thoughts hinder you from pursuing and it turns out that it's not meant to be, does that mean you waited till it was too late?
The other day while referring to "life changing cool things" I said, "I feel like I should be making them happen (set goals and achieve them) but some things aren't worth forcing." By forcing them, I meant throwing it out there with uncertain thoughts that hinder me from pursuing... I'm not ready, why take the chance? There's always that thrill with chance though. Play it smart? Or be spontaneous?
^ ^ ^ this write is full of rhetorical questions... but at the same time, I kinda want answers from others! : P
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Too much going on
I'm really trying to focus on me for a change...
I'm the guy that always wants to help everyone else and I've always been this way! I've been told that I'm too nice and I care way too much about people that don't deserve my attention. Apparently I need to calm that down just a little bit.
I have way too much going on in the world around me that I never seem to be able to focus on myself. I love hanging out with friends though. I'm definitely a happier person when I'm with them! I've been hanging out a lot lately. With some more than others which can be both good and bad... The close friends that I have are amazing and definitely inspirational. I just need a little more "me time." Anyone else feel like they're to involved with whats going on that you forget that you actually exist too? haha.
I'm the guy that always wants to help everyone else and I've always been this way! I've been told that I'm too nice and I care way too much about people that don't deserve my attention. Apparently I need to calm that down just a little bit.
I have way too much going on in the world around me that I never seem to be able to focus on myself. I love hanging out with friends though. I'm definitely a happier person when I'm with them! I've been hanging out a lot lately. With some more than others which can be both good and bad... The close friends that I have are amazing and definitely inspirational. I just need a little more "me time." Anyone else feel like they're to involved with whats going on that you forget that you actually exist too? haha.
Thursday, June 9, 2011
haha. for poop and laughter!
^ ^ get it? ((shits and giggles))
"When you have your picture taken with Mickey Mouse at Disneyland, does the guy inside the costume smile for the camera?"
"If Barbie is so popular, why do you have to buy her friends?"
"No one ever says "It's only a game," when their team is winning."
"If your in a vehicle going the speed of light, what happens when you turn the headlights on?"
"Why do they put Braille dots on the keypad of the drive up ATM?"
"If corn oil comes from corn, where does baby oil come from?"
"When you have your picture taken with Mickey Mouse at Disneyland, does the guy inside the costume smile for the camera?"
"If Barbie is so popular, why do you have to buy her friends?"
"No one ever says "It's only a game," when their team is winning."
"If your in a vehicle going the speed of light, what happens when you turn the headlights on?"
"Why do they put Braille dots on the keypad of the drive up ATM?"
"If corn oil comes from corn, where does baby oil come from?"
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
Focus
Yesterday i started writing, but i never finished writing on that topic... I kept the window open on my comp and left work with intentions to possibly finish it today. I just deleted everything I typed so I can write this one...
My older cousin used to refer to my dad as "the jack of all trades, master of none". It's very true! My dad has endless skills when it comes to EVERYTHING, but he is not one of them professionally. He's never focused on one thing solidly enough to master it.
I'm learning that foucsing on one thing at a time is 10 times more rewarding than focusing on multiple things at the same time. Yea it's cool to "kill 2 birds with 1 stone", but its better to get 1 thing perfect in multiple trys rather than multiple half ass things done at one time.
"You get out what you put in"
It goes the same way with people... You invest time in people every day! Best friends, distant friends, family,
My older cousin used to refer to my dad as "the jack of all trades, master of none". It's very true! My dad has endless skills when it comes to EVERYTHING, but he is not one of them professionally. He's never focused on one thing solidly enough to master it.
I'm learning that foucsing on one thing at a time is 10 times more rewarding than focusing on multiple things at the same time. Yea it's cool to "kill 2 birds with 1 stone", but its better to get 1 thing perfect in multiple trys rather than multiple half ass things done at one time.
"You get out what you put in"
It goes the same way with people... You invest time in people every day! Best friends, distant friends, family,
acquaintances. You pick and choose who you focus on and your friends can say a lot about you. Relationships hold the same principal. If you're trying to start something, shouldn't you be focusing all your attention towards that one person? Dating requires you to divide your attention between the people you date.... doesn't seem too fair to me. Makes it sound like you're sharing! (Unless you're a swinger! haha, then I guess sharing is ok)
What I guess I'm getting at is the importance of focusing. My career, the people around me, my next future relationship, my life.... It's all stuff that mean a lot to me so why go at it half ass? 1 thing at a time. Make it perfect. I deserve what's best for me.
Focus!
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
2
Here’s the short story of the number 2
It’s a friend to me and a friend to you!
It’s not alone, it’s 2… it is not “1”
And 2 surely knows how to have some fun!
Don’t get it twisted, I’m not talking about the bathroom 2,
This has nothing to do with when you go poo.
Some things only make sense when they come in 2’s
Chop sticks, ear plugs and a pair of shoes.
Holding hands requires an absolute minimum of 2…
It feels amazing when you know what you have is true!
2s come in between numbers 1 and 3.
It doesn’t discriminate, it’s not shallow from what I can see.
Although 2 in a race doesn’t make you first place,
I hope this story of 2 has put a smile on your face!
Friday, May 27, 2011
Keep the bar high!
So there's one thing I learned a loooooooong time ago.....
"Don't expect anything from anyone!"
The more you EXPECT the more likely you are to be let down! If you're not expecting anything, isn't it more of a pleasant surprise?!? My little cousin used to call me all the time stressin out about family drama and how "no one wants him around." He felt that way because he always expected to be included in everything that everyone did! So when they would go do things without him, BAM "JAMES, NO ONE WANTS ME AROUND!!!!!" That's not true... We build expectations in routines without even knowing it. Growing up we alllllll did things together. When an uncle would go out to eat, we allllll went out to eat with him. Expectations are definitely not a good habit but we're human. We're creatures of habit.
To be independent is to not be influenced or controlled by others in matters of opinion, conduct, etc.
When you expect things, you're being influenced by what someone else does right? Is that being independent?
Most definitely isn't.
Another thing I've come to realize is that although you set high goals, they won't always be obtainable. Not to say they're impossible because nothing is impossible! I'm also not saying to lower your standards! Keep them HIGH. It's motivation! There are just times when what you reach for is just going to stay out of reach for a little bit longer. Everyone grows and never really stops growing. Maybe its just not the right time at the moment. Maybe someone's just a little bit taller than you and can get to it first! Doesn't mean you can't reach it later.
I used to get frustrated when I would set high yet obtainable goals and still not be able to reach them. I would drive myself insane with frustration. It's not worth the time! Why get mad?
Step back, take a deep breath, evaluate the situation and attack things with a different perspective!
I'm Definitely growing, i can see it and I LOVE it! It feels great! I'm excited to see what's in store for my future... I wish i already knew but what's the fun in that? I like surprises!
"Don't expect anything from anyone!"
The more you EXPECT the more likely you are to be let down! If you're not expecting anything, isn't it more of a pleasant surprise?!? My little cousin used to call me all the time stressin out about family drama and how "no one wants him around." He felt that way because he always expected to be included in everything that everyone did! So when they would go do things without him, BAM "JAMES, NO ONE WANTS ME AROUND!!!!!" That's not true... We build expectations in routines without even knowing it. Growing up we alllllll did things together. When an uncle would go out to eat, we allllll went out to eat with him. Expectations are definitely not a good habit but we're human. We're creatures of habit.
To be independent is to not be influenced or controlled by others in matters of opinion, conduct, etc.
When you expect things, you're being influenced by what someone else does right? Is that being independent?
Most definitely isn't.
Another thing I've come to realize is that although you set high goals, they won't always be obtainable. Not to say they're impossible because nothing is impossible! I'm also not saying to lower your standards! Keep them HIGH. It's motivation! There are just times when what you reach for is just going to stay out of reach for a little bit longer. Everyone grows and never really stops growing. Maybe its just not the right time at the moment. Maybe someone's just a little bit taller than you and can get to it first! Doesn't mean you can't reach it later.
I used to get frustrated when I would set high yet obtainable goals and still not be able to reach them. I would drive myself insane with frustration. It's not worth the time! Why get mad?
Step back, take a deep breath, evaluate the situation and attack things with a different perspective!
I'm Definitely growing, i can see it and I LOVE it! It feels great! I'm excited to see what's in store for my future... I wish i already knew but what's the fun in that? I like surprises!
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Overly happy for a Tuesday?
So I woke up in a great mood this morning! Its only Tuesday! Not even close to being the weekend so I have no clue why I would even be so happy right now, but I am! : ) I titled this with a question knowing the answer is "NO." I was recently told there's no such thing as being overly happy and I now believe it. Call me crazy.... I'll just say "I'm sorry you suck!" You're obviously not enjoying youself! ; ) you should! Even in less fortunate times, I've learned that you have to be positive to get through them!
Before my Mom passed she would always tell me "Don't be sad when I'm gone. I won't be suffering anymore." It was amazingly hard to take those words and not be sad at that time. It wasn't till the weekend of her funeral service that it actually hit me. She went through dialysis 3 days a week for 6 years... She was no longer in pain. She wasn't tired anymore. She wasn't suffering. And as much as it still hurts me to know she's gone, I'm happy that she no longer has to deal with what she was going through. She was ALWAYS happy and did ANYTHING to make us happy.
Try being positive for a week. See how that works out for you!
Before my Mom passed she would always tell me "Don't be sad when I'm gone. I won't be suffering anymore." It was amazingly hard to take those words and not be sad at that time. It wasn't till the weekend of her funeral service that it actually hit me. She went through dialysis 3 days a week for 6 years... She was no longer in pain. She wasn't tired anymore. She wasn't suffering. And as much as it still hurts me to know she's gone, I'm happy that she no longer has to deal with what she was going through. She was ALWAYS happy and did ANYTHING to make us happy.
Try being positive for a week. See how that works out for you!
Monday, May 23, 2011
pretty sure I'm broken.
So there's been a couple times now where I've had a great topic to write about, but when it actaully came down to wrting I didn't get very far. Whether it was getting distracted or just not knowing what to write, I seemed to not have the motivation to get it done.
Don't get me wrong, the past 2 times i was at work. So I'm going to blame it on that, but at the same time if I really wanted to I guess I can write now about what I was going to write then? I feel like writing in here is a spur of the moment thing though. If i brought up something that happened a while ago which isn't really on my mind now, does that still count?!? There are definitely times where I'll be starting things out with "ok, so the other day.......", but that'll be because its on my mind at that moment. So if i wrote half of it, but then decided to finish it another day its not that exciting to me anymore.
Oh well. I guess from now on if I'm going to write, I have to commit to actually finishing it like I did with this post!
Don't get me wrong, the past 2 times i was at work. So I'm going to blame it on that, but at the same time if I really wanted to I guess I can write now about what I was going to write then? I feel like writing in here is a spur of the moment thing though. If i brought up something that happened a while ago which isn't really on my mind now, does that still count?!? There are definitely times where I'll be starting things out with "ok, so the other day.......", but that'll be because its on my mind at that moment. So if i wrote half of it, but then decided to finish it another day its not that exciting to me anymore.
Oh well. I guess from now on if I'm going to write, I have to commit to actually finishing it like I did with this post!
Friday, May 13, 2011
Friday the 13th.
So today personally is going great. There's nothing going on that i can actually complain about. As I stated to a friend earlier, "with the exception of being at work, today's an ok day!" (cuz who wants to be at work when it isn't their dream job) I'm not one for superstition but work today is slowly but surely trying to bring me down! To be honest, EVERYTHING is going wrong today! 1 shippment got bumpped and won't deliver till Monday, another shipment was left at the airport and the agent that was supposed to do it doesn't have anyone to do it anymore and something that was supposed to be picked up by my driver got delivered to our warehouse and my driver isnt here anymore....! I'm not gonna blame it on "Friday the 13th" though cuz again, I'm not one for superstition. but i will say its kind of a coincidence.
Happy Friday everyone!
Happy Friday everyone!
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Self titled. (new day new adventure)
So, for some reason I've been coming across quotes that really seem to hit home lately. Today my friend Kim posted a quote on facebook that goes along with the title of my blog!
“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.” Maria Robinson
Everyone likes to say that the past is behind us and you can't take back what you did. It's very true! You can't take it back, but what you can do is take that experience and learn from it! Dissect it, analyze it, and try to fully grasp the information! Then put that knowledge towards the present and most likely towards the future... EVERYONE has a past and if they tell you they don't, they're obviously lying. It's up to you to decide if you want to keep on the path you've already made or to step off of that one and make a new one!
Unless you have access to a delorean that can take you back in time, you can't change who you WERE! It's never too late to change who you will become! They say everything happens for a reason, i believe it does because without experience, you'll never grow. Start today in a direction that you want it to end!
I hope you all have an amazingly wonderful day!
“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.” Maria Robinson
Everyone likes to say that the past is behind us and you can't take back what you did. It's very true! You can't take it back, but what you can do is take that experience and learn from it! Dissect it, analyze it, and try to fully grasp the information! Then put that knowledge towards the present and most likely towards the future... EVERYONE has a past and if they tell you they don't, they're obviously lying. It's up to you to decide if you want to keep on the path you've already made or to step off of that one and make a new one!
Unless you have access to a delorean that can take you back in time, you can't change who you WERE! It's never too late to change who you will become! They say everything happens for a reason, i believe it does because without experience, you'll never grow. Start today in a direction that you want it to end!
I hope you all have an amazingly wonderful day!
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Enjoy it. its worth it!
I read a quote today that put a smile on my face...
it read "live for the moments you can't put into words"
The more and more i thought about it, the amazing moments that were most memorable were the "you had to have been there" moments! even if you put them into words, its definitely not the same and never cool explaining it to others. I look back and and can't help but to smile at these moments. Have you ever randomly thought of moments and laugh out loud? ((people around you look at you like you're crazy right?)) who cares! You're enjoying those moments! Even after they're gone and behind you, they're still around for you to enjoy! Stop stressing about the small stuff and live for the moments you can't put into words! I'm 99.9% sure you'll be happier! : )
it read "live for the moments you can't put into words"
The more and more i thought about it, the amazing moments that were most memorable were the "you had to have been there" moments! even if you put them into words, its definitely not the same and never cool explaining it to others. I look back and and can't help but to smile at these moments. Have you ever randomly thought of moments and laugh out loud? ((people around you look at you like you're crazy right?)) who cares! You're enjoying those moments! Even after they're gone and behind you, they're still around for you to enjoy! Stop stressing about the small stuff and live for the moments you can't put into words! I'm 99.9% sure you'll be happier! : )
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Happy Mothers Day!
This goes out to all the amazing Mothers in the world!
Thank you Mom for all you've done!
You're comparable to absolutely no one. NONE.
They say a man becomes a father the first time he holds his baby,
But a Mother from the second you found out.... You're an amazing lady!
Thanks for all the times you were hard on me.
I realized you were opening my eyes to see!
Your inspiration has only helped me to grow.
You're wonderful! I just wanted to let you know.
I can never say it enough, thank you for being who you are!
I'll do my best to shine through you! Thanks for setting a high bar!
Thank you Mom for all you've done!
You're comparable to absolutely no one. NONE.
They say a man becomes a father the first time he holds his baby,
But a Mother from the second you found out.... You're an amazing lady!
Thanks for all the times you were hard on me.
I realized you were opening my eyes to see!
Your inspiration has only helped me to grow.
You're wonderful! I just wanted to let you know.
I can never say it enough, thank you for being who you are!
I'll do my best to shine through you! Thanks for setting a high bar!
Saturday, May 7, 2011
First of more to come.
So i was kinda tricked into making this thing. It's ok though because i know it'll be fun. As i was editing this, i went back to find some info that i wanted to use and i was caught off guard with hella old school memories! ADVENTURES that have been taken! I'm definitely excited to see what life has in store for me next....!
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